I Can't Date Jesus Love, Sex, Family, Race, and Other Reasons I've Put My Faith in Beyoncé
Michael Arceneaux
Highlights
I was taking the hint, but decided to continue flirting for the sake of convincing myself that I was finally about this life and making real efforts to gain a footing in it.
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If I was on the road to acceptance of self, I should not have been so eager to race after a man who was traveling in a completely different direction than I was.
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In the past, I had always called him my fake boyfriend because he gave me the kind of grief you have with a trifling partner but none of the perks.
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I conflated his ego with his having real feelings for me. I hated how he made me feel. I hated that he played me. I hated that in allowing him to play me, I played the hell out of myself. I hated that he only bolstered so many lingering insecurities in me.
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For many who lack access financially, emotionally, physically, or some combination of the three, pop culture is how we get to access perspectives from outside our bubbles.
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But every choice I’d made was right at the time. And maybe we were only meant to share those moments in order to guide us to the next stages of our lives.
